too much for a title

yesterday it took hours to get past a wreck on the freeway in downtown atlanta.
 It was irritating and I became impatient.
We finally approached the cause. A large black SUV (I think it was a Yukon Denali XL)
the rear half of the vehicle smashed in, axial exposed and twisted, tires and wheels ripped off.
The other vehicle a smaller Toyota 4 Runner, front end smashed in to the windshield. Engine MIA
Obvious as it was, the 4 Runner rear ended the Yukon at a very high speed.


At the side of the road sat a mangled pink toddler seat and miscelleanous belongings.
"Where was the occupant of this seat?" I thought painfully to myself.
 I knew.
As I watched my daughter snoozing away safely in her carseat, I thought "This could be us
at any given moment."
A child, a lover, a spouse, a mother, a best friend...
Ripped from life. Ripped from your world.
Torn out of your heart forever
Honestly the thought too much for me to bare

It also made me think

How short life is.

My life could be over in an instant before I got to.....

Tell my mother just how beautiful I think her heart is

before I got to learn to scuba dive

before I got to hear my daughter speak or see her walk

before I got to be married and loved by a soulmate

before I told all my parents how much I loved them

before I got one last walk with my charlie dog

It also made me realize....

It doesnt matter how clean my house is, if I had time to squeeze in that last workout
how irritating the guy going 45 in a 65 was.

I will not let my life be full of meaningless excuses.

that i just didnt have time
had other things to do
was waiting for the right moment
didnt have the guts
couldnt find the appropriate time
didnt want to hurt someones feelings
didnt have the money
was too tired
just couldnt fit it in
was too shy
didnt want to disappoint
was waiting for he/she/them to do/say something
didnt want to embarrass myself
didnt want to be rejected

The saddest thing I can imagine is getting to the end of something with nothing but regrets. maybe there will always be regrets. Maybe every end has plenty of "I wish I wouldve's"

All I can do is try to limit them as much as possible.

Care with all your might
Fight till the end and never give up
Love passionately with reckless abandon
Dont settle
Get swept away and never look back
Let your heart break for what breaks His
Dont get irritated or bitter
Be kind
Dont be envious of what someone has if you weren't willing to do what they did to get it
Be patient and strive for what is rightfully yours with all  your heart and all your soul
Do what makes you happy
Show devotion in your acts and your emotions
Treat others as they want to be treated
Love without expectation
Give yourself freely and wholely to the one you love
Dont lose faith, always hope and love till the end of time